Things That Happened

The following were some things that I recalled from an ayahuasca ceremony I participated in.

I appreciated my mother and saw that I need to start the process of taking over her business.

I realized the purpose of ritual is to slow down and honor and appreciate.

I saw the destroyer god in the fire. Consuming and making room for new growth.

I died. My body became still and my soul started the process of unzipping from the mortal coil. I processed each pain and in the end was a sweet release dissolving into the source.

I became every person who ever sat and sang in a circle through time.

I hugged a tree, let it hold me up.

I saw everyone in the circle connected through the portal. I saw everyone as beings of pure light connected through threads.

I saw [the facilitator] as an old woman channeling all the ancestors who say in leadership of a circle before.

I wore a helmet of pure light, like a space suit.

I learned about belonging.

It wasn’t like the real thing

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I was Born

I refuse to turn around on my way out. A breach baby insisting I come into this world feet first. No amount of coaxing will

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On November 30th, 2018 I set off on an adventure with my 80-year-old dad, our friend Skittles, and our guide Orlando on a hike across